For those of you who have wondered, yes, I am looking into adoption. And, no, it's not for finding new parents (Chris). I've had this on my heart for a few years now, and I can finally make a move towards fulfilling my dream. I just pray that this is of God, and not of myself. I know single parenting is difficult (not that I've experienced it myself yet :-)), but I'm moving on faith that this is of God, and that He will fulfill my dream as He sees fit. Just like Jeremy Camp's song, Walk By Faith:
Your hand will guide my every way
Will I receive the words You say
Every moment of every day
Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me
Help me to rid my endless fears
You've been so faithful for all my years
With the one breath You make me new
Your grace covers all I do
Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me
I will admit, it has been difficult adjusting to smaller surroundings here at home. But God is gracious, my family is wonderful, and I'm glad I made this move. I'm looking for friends in this area that I can get to know and spend time with.
I'm sorry that I haven't kept in better touch with you all during the summer. I'll work at it during my time at home.
My life hasn't always been what everyone thinks. I've struggled a lot over the summer, even with working in a Christian organization alongside fellow believers. God has not always come first in my life, and I could feel a hunger and thirsting for what I once had. I am SO thankful that He has not given up on me. My life is not what it should be, but I know all is not lost. I'm going through a cleansing process. Flushing out that which should not be and getting the 'vitamins and minerals' of what I need most. Jesus is all I need.
And there's no one else around
While I'm lying here in bed
You're in my heart, You're in my head
You're all I need, You're all I need
There are a million voices
Calling out my name
But You're the One I want to hear
So make the others disappear
You are all I need when I'm surrounded
You are all I need if I'm by myself
You fill me when I'm empty
There is nothing else
You're all I need
When the morning comes
And Your mercy is renewed
There's a fire in my bones
I'm not afraid to go alone
You're all I need
You're all I need
The sun on my face
I hear You whisper loud
You're still the God that opens seas
Every flower, even me
You're all I need
You're all I need
I'm drawn to everything that You do
Nothing compares with You
Bethany Dillon
Peace.